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[xx_gothaggot_xx]

I think about myself too much
I think about others to distract myself from myself
I think about pleasure to distract myself from myself
I think about sex to distract myself from myself
I think about masturbation to distract myself from myself
I think about music to distract myself from myself
I think music is a horrible distraction, since I'm rather bad at making it
I think I'm stuck in the past
I think I haven't moved on from anything ever
I think I want to hug him, and him, and her, and her, and them. I won't. It's for the best
I think I want to kiss him, and him, and her, and them. I won't. It's for the best
I think I'm gonna lose my job
I think I don't want my job. I do need it, tho
I think I'm so boring
I think I'm so two-faced
I think I'm so selfish. Am I?
I think I don't deserve anything
I think they should stop loving me
I think I want to break this damn laptop with my bare hands
I think I want to sink my nails into my skin and pull on my veins
I think I'm not sure I want to do that
I think I want to take estrogen
I think I want to be a girl. Just for once
I think I'm never going to have the life I want
I think I'll waste all my time away and die as if I never existed
I think I'm scared
I'm so scared
I'm so confused
I'm so fucking annoying